30 "day" song tag

Hi everyone, today I am doing the 30 day song tag, in one go! Because, why not? So let's get started!

 

 

MY FAVOURITE SONG?

Like I said in the TMI tag, I have been loving Iggy Azalea, Fancy. However, I am also really into Sia with Chandelier, great song! Don't Stop and She Looks So Perfect by 5SOS are awesome too! Oh and Classic by MKTO is top!

 

LEAST FAVOURITE SONG?

Anything like Gagnam Style, Blurred Lines etc. you get my drift right?

 

 

 

A SONG THAT MAKES ME HAPPY?

Listening to it right now, and smiling! No Angels by Bastille feat. Ella (Eyre)! Love, love, love it! It was a cover of TLC's No Scrubs, but I love the way Bastille cover songs because they just recreate the entire sound and style of the song- go and check them out!

 

 

A SONG THAT MAKES ME SAD?

Well that would have to be, hmm I don't even know haha! Oh, got it! Small Bump by Ed Sheeran! (Love him) but that song :'(

 

 

A SONG THAT REMINDS ME OF SOMEONE?

Heartbeat by Scouting for Girls! Love that freaking song, and it reminds me of my old neighbours- that was our jam!

 

 

 

A SONG THAT REMINDS ME OF SOMEWHERE?

Do you believe in magic? From Disneyland Paris <3

 

 

A SONG THAT REMINDS ME OF AN EVENT?

This is Love, will.i.am feat. Eva Simons, reminds me of Activities Week 2012, we played it on the coach all the time, awh year 7 good times!

 

 

A SONG THAT I KNOW ALL THE WORDS TO?

Well, I know the words to a lot of songs, but I am going to say a rather old song... Like a Prayer by Madonna! Love it and it was our House Music song at school (the winning song!)

 

 

A SONG THAT I CAN DANCE TO?

Most, but a song that will make me get up and dance is definitely the Cha Cha Slide!

 

 

A SONG I FALL ASLEEP TO?

I cannot fall asleep to music, I did it once when I was little and it gave me nightmares- never again!

 

A SONG FROM MY FAVOURITE BAND?

Overjoyed by Bastille, I used to hate this song. I would constantly skip over it on the album, but it has grown on me and I love it!

 

 

 

A SONG FROM A BAND I HATE?

I wouldn't say I hate a band? But I am not a huge fan of the Arctic Monkeys, but I have never really made an effort to listen to them! That can be a challenge for me, to listen more to TAM!

 

GUILTY PLEASURE?

Everybody (Backstreet's Back) you know what you mean! I love that song so much oh my days haha!

 

A SONG THAT NOBODY WOULD EXPECT ME TO LIKE?

Aces High by Iron Maiden, thanks dad for the heavy metal loving gene! I seriously love that band (shh don't tell haha!)

 

A SONG THAT DESCRIBES ME?

Ordinary People by John Legend, I don't know- I am just an ordinary person I guess! And well done will.i.am for writing such an amazing song!

 

A SONG I USED TO LIKE BUT NOW I HATE?

I wouldn't say I hate this song now, but I think I have just listened to it too much! Icarus by Bastille, I just don't listen to it so much because I have over listened if that makes sense?

 

A SONG I ALWAYS HEAR ON THE RADIO?

I don't really listen to the radio, but whenever I do- our local radio station is like obsessed with 80's/0's tunes so I guess that era of music!

 

 

A SONG THAT I WISH WAS PLAYED ON THE RADIO MORE?

This is random, but I really like K.T Tunstall and Black Horse and the Cherry Tree #childhoodmemories!

 

A SONG FROM MY FAVOURITE ALBUM?

Sorry to bore you, but Bastille yet again! And this time it is from Other People's Heartache part 1, Waking to Oblivion feat. Ralph Pelleymounter (he is from To Kill a King)!

 

A SONG I LISTEN TO WHEN I AM ANGRY?

I don't know, something with a heavy beat. Something from Basshunter, All I Ever Wanted - cracking album! Love it so much and the songs always just make me relaxed because I used to listen to them when I was younger. Each to their own!

 

A SONG I LISTEN TO WHEN I AM HAPPY?

Happy by Pharrell Williams obviously haha! Pretty self explanatory!

 

A SONG I LISTEN TO WHEN I AM SAD?

Same Love by Macklemore and Ryan Lewis feat. Mary Lambert. Just a really thought provoking song and sad lyrics, but happy I some parts too!

 

A SONG TO PLAY AT MY WEDDING?

All of Me by John Legend, seems legit right?

 

A SONG TO PLAY AT MY FUNERAL?

Angel by Nicholas McDonald, because a) I love him b)I want to marry him c)it is a beautiful song

that will make everyone cry and d) he follows me on twitter #wahay!

 

A SONG THAT MAKES ME LAUGH?

Knife Party Internet Friends, gawd I will lol! Just listen to it and imagine someone mouthing "YOU BLOCKED ME ON FACEBOOK AND KNOW YOU ARE GOING TO DIE!" I died of laughter when someone did that to me haha!

 

 

A SONG THAT I CAN PLAY ON AN INSTRUMENT?

Well I can play quite a lot! On my violin: Harry Potter, Pirates of The Caribbean, Tchaikovsky's Waltz (I think haha) and more! Then I have taught myself loads of pop songs on the keyboard and currently learning Blue Jeans by Lana Del Ray (girl crush?!)

 

A SONG YOU WISH YOU COULD PLAY?

Something really hard, or Bolero! I love that song loads, you know the one Torvil and Dean won Olympic Gold Medal's and got the perfect mark, to? Yeah that! I loooovvvveeee it!

 

A SONG THAT MAKES ME GUILTY?

Umm, songs don't make me feel guilty? Haha!

 

Okay, so anyway!  I hope you have enjoyed that and I tag all of you!

 

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How To Feel Good About Yourself

Hi everyone, now today I wanted to talk about something other than anxiety. Although I want to promote feeling good in your own skin, it can be hard when you just can't. A lot of my friends have told me to stop wearing makeup to school, so I did. To start with, I did get a lot of compliments and I started to feel better about myself. Eventually the novelty wore off and I started feeling ugly and pretty shit; because I wasn't getting the compliments anymore and I just felt so much better wearing that extra layer on my face! So I started wearing it again, then I stopped, then the cycle began again. So although I want you to feel good in your own skin, if you don't here are my top tips:

 

Makeup
This can be a great way to start feeling better about yourself, I know it sounds silly but it is just really satisfying that when you do wear it- and you look in the mirror and you look so much better! So, if you are just starting out in makeup and are on a budget, there are a lot of awesome cheap "drugstore" brands to chose from. Base makeup is so buildable so you can chose the amount you want, here are my top tips (sorry the photos are the product images but the quality of my camera is shocking so I wanted you to see it well!):

Tip Number 1!
Get to know your skin!
If you don't know what skin type you have, here is a good way to determine: when you wake up in the morning, feel your face. What is it like? If it feels greasy and sweaty all over, you my friend- are kindly welcomed into the oily club! With oily skin, you want to make sure you use a primer to keep your makeup on, a matte foundation and ALWAYS POWDER! Another thing I do is use a mattifying moisturiser, these are really good at absorbing oils.
If, when you wake up and your skin feels oily in some places and dry in others, you are combination! It is quite hard to tell what to use, but I would recommend a seaweed based skincare product- go to the Body Shop they have some crackers! And then just try out some different foundation finishes, and if you like use a primer but it may feel a little cakey! And you still need to powder!
If your skin doesn't really feel like anything, you know what I mean? Then you have normal skin! You can use whatever foundation you like, just find the one that you love the most but still remember to powder- we don't want no shine!
Finally, if you have dry skin- you will know! You probably won't need a primer but if you have large pores then you could use a pore minimiser. My one and only tip is to steer clear from mattes. They will look disgusting on your skin! They will cling to your dry patches and then it just makes it look like you were trying to conceal a spot, so try a more satin finish because that will look absolutely lush!

Tip Number 2!
 Powder, powder, powder!
Powder will be your best friend! Apply it over your foundation to get rid of shine or use a pigmented powder over foundation to give a bit of extra coverage, or on its own to give a natural look. I personally love the Rimmel London Stay Matte Powder if you are on a budget. It comes in Translucent, Pink Blossoms, Peach Glow, Sandstorm, Silky Beige and Nude Beige. It costs £3.99 so it is super cheap for what it is! If you want some other reviews click here:
http://uk.rimmellondon.com/products/face/stay-matte-pressed-powder

A higher end powder that I love, not so much for setting make up but for wearing as my/ instead of foundation is the Benefit Hello Flawless Powder, I have tried the foundation version of this, which was apparently good for oily skin, but I didn't really get along with it. I still have some leftover so I might try it again, because I used it in winter when I had more dry skin. So this powder is glorious! It makes my skin feel so silky and soft and just so posh! I am a lover of Benefit makeup and even though it is on the pricier side, it is well worth it trust me! However, I am digressing here, but I have tried a couple of their products which I am not a fan of. Would you like a blog post on that?
http://www.benefitcosmetics.co.uk/product/view/hello-flawless <----- click there for more info!

However, it does cost £25.50 which to be honest is quite a lot of money but I am in love, if I could marry this product, I would!

Tip Number 3!Mascara is your friend!
Don't be afraid to use mascara, after all it is going to finish off your look amazingly. If there was only one product I would have to use forever it would be a mascara because
it really just adds that much more "wowness" to your face. Some people like to wear just mascara as their makeup, that is totally fine- but in my opinion, I wouldn't wear it without a base on my face but that is just my opinion! My favourite mascara is the Collection Big Fake Ultimate, it costs £4.99 however it does dry up fairly fast and to my knowledge as of know they are yet to make a waterproof version which sucks!(the link to the collection site isn't working so here is the Boots one instead!) http://www.boots.com/en/Collection2000-Big-Fake-Ultimate-Mascara_1281311/ 



A waterproof mascara I am loving is the Benefit Bad Gal Lash mascara, now on the packaging it doesn't say it is waterproof and I haven't tested it in a pool or anything, however- I did wear it to watch The Fault in Our Stars, and I cried so, so much! And not a tear mark, pretty impressive right?

http://www.benefitcosmetics.co.uk/product/view/badgal-lash-mascara

Tip Number 4!
Use Youtube!
If these tips have been useful, great! However, there are loads of beauty gurus online and where I learned all I know about makeup! So, I am pretty sure you have- go and check out other beauty Youtubers because a lot of them are make up artists so they give awesome and super advice, here are some of my favourites: (I just had a heart attack, I went to click on another tab and I accidentally closed this one and I thought I lost all of this- I didn't  though. phew!)
https://www.youtube.com/user/pixi2woo - Tanya Burr
https://www.youtube.com/user/pixiwoo - Pixiwoo (Nic and Sam)
https://www.youtube.com/user/Sprinkleofglitter - Sprinkle of Glitter (Louise)
https://www.youtube.com/user/zoella280390 - Zoella (Zoe)
https://www.youtube.com/user/kandeejohnson - Kandee Johnson
https://www.youtube.com/user/essiebutton - Essiebutton
https://www.youtube.com/user/FleurDeForce- Fleur DeForce
Of course, there are so many more, but these are just a few that I love.

Hair
I don't have too many tips on how to feel good about your hair, because I am still learning all different and funky hairstyles. I can't even French plait...

Tip Number 1:
You can do it if you dry shampoo it!
Dry shampoo is my saviour! You know the days when you just can't be arsed to do anything with your hair and you haven't washed it in like four days? Dry shampoo is an excellent solution! You just spray it in your roots and massage it in, BAM! You are done. I stand by Batiste because they are really inexpensive and they have such a good range. I also love that the scent lingers too because there would be nothing worse than putting dry shampoo in your hair if the smell went away- nobody wants smelly hair haha! They just make dry shampoo so you can guarantee it will be good because they put all of their energy into making just the one product- not loads of others!
http://www.batistehair.co.uk/
You can also use it just to give your hair a bit more volume or texture too! There are so many different scents and formulas so you will find one you love and they make minis too! I am a lover of the Coconut and Exotic Tropical one.

Tip Number 2!
Salt Spray it up!
Salt spray is a great way to give a beachy and wavy look to your locks. I have curly-frizzy hair so I hate when I brush it and it goes all frizzy and yucky! So, spray some of this beauty in and Bob's your uncle! I like to spray it in my hair directly, twist some parts around my hair and scrunch some of my hair up. I also like applying it to my fingers and just run that through my hair too. This is my solution to anti-frizz but keeping the waves and it adds so much texture to my hair! I have been using the L'Oreal one, and I love it. It smells like anti-septic which could be an issue for some people but I love it- most hair brands make them too!
http://www.loreal-paris.co.uk/styling/studio-line/matt-and-messy/tousled-wave-salt-spray.aspx

 So, that is it! My top tips of feeling amazing in your own skin. Of course, you can just pick and chose which tips you would like to use and I hope you have enjoyed this! If you have twitter, comment below and tweet me (@didijustpanic) I LOVE LOOKING GOOD! Love you guys, please comment!

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Chapter 1: The Facts - continued again (final part)

 

Today, this is the most personal post I have done to date. I have spoken about GAD and SAD in previous posts, but today I am writing about Panic Disorder.

 

Panic Disorder

 

I have suffered with some sort of panic disorder, yes fairly mildly but it is still there, for just over a year. I know that everyone feels anxious and panics in certain situations, which is perfectly normal, however for people like me- we can feel anxious and nervous at for what others deem to be perfectly normal situations. When you are in a situation that makes you uneasy, nervous, scared or anything like that: what do you do? Probably act in a rational way and just calm yourself down, yes? Well, for people with panic disorder, in situations like this it is near impossible to calm down. Instead, we will most likely experience a panic attack. And, I am just come out and say this:

PEOPLE WHO SAY THEY HAD A PANIC ATTACK WHEN THEY JUST SAW A SPIDER OR JUST KIND OF SAY IT AS A JOKE OR TO EXAGGERATE THEMSELVES- ARE THE PEOPLE I REALLY CAN'T STAND.

Because, I can tell you this for nothing, a panic attack is one of the scariest thing I have ever experienced. According to the NHS these are the most common symptoms when having a panic attack and I will highlight which ones I have experienced:

• palpitations, sensation of an irregular heartbeat
• sweating
• hot flushes
• trembling
• shaking
• chills
• dizziness
• dry mouth
• chest pain
• shortness of breath
• hyperventilation
• nausea
• feeling faint
• numbness or pins and needles
• need the toilet
• fear or dread
• churning stomach
• ringing ears
• tingling fingers
• shivering

In the majority of panic attacks I have experienced I have cried or felt extremely emotional. Now, when I say I have panic disorder, I haven't been diagnosed but I am guessing I do. I have panic attacks in situations where I feel too hot or too surrounded by heat. However, in situations where it easy to feel anxious for the everyday person, I am completely on edge and experience tiny bursts of these symptoms. Most panic attacks last for around 5-20 minutes. If you are in a very stressful situation, for yourself, and have experienced a panic attack- there is a possibility that you could experience a panic attack straight after a previous one- if that makes sense.

 

People with panic attacks can sometimes worry about having another one, therefore constantly living in fear. Luckily, I don't have this on-going fear, yet when in a stressful situation - I do tend to think 'I am going to have a panic attack,' or 'oh my god I am panicking,'. I am a generally anxious person and I so suffer with quite severe shyness, as explained in post on SAD.

 

Finally, once when I had a panic attack (my first ever one, and my worst one to date) my symptoms were so intense, I felt depersonalised. This means that you feel detached from the situation, your body and surroundings. It makes you feel like you aren't really there, the best way to describe it is as if you were a fish in a fish tank and having loads of people looking and staring at you. People may think it can make your panic attack feel less frightening, when in fact it made, me anyway, feel a whole lot worse and extremely disorientating.

 

The cause of panic disorder is not yet fully understood, but here are the most likely:

• traumatic life experiences, bereavement, abuse etc. can cause feelings of anxiety
• genetics, a family member suffers with PD (this is a theory)
• neurotransmitters, chemicals in the brain and perhaps an imbalance of these chemicals can cause the development of this condition
• increased CO2 sensitivity?
• catastrophic thinking, focusing on minor symptoms and interpreting them catastrophically

Again, the first course of action is CBT, where you will talk about what you experience during a panic attack, how you feel etc. The next step would be antidepressants of similar medications. I have explained this in other posts because treatment in near identical for most anxiety disorders. I do not feel that my anxiety is severe enough to get medical help just yet. I will do a post soon on my first attack and explain it in detail. I hope this 'series' has been helpful for you. And again, like my previous posts on this topic- all information is from nhs.uk so if you want any extra and more in depth advice go and check out that site.

 

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